While bouncing around my home of Newport down by the Nye district ( the more upscale and artsy area) this song 'rushed' inside of my head. -you like the word play? haha....I slowed my walking pace down and started to notice different sets of people in my view. In each group, there were individuals who were very animated while talking to the others, whom were standing and observing-like a personal audience for the performers. ( this is how I was interpreting what I was seeing) I thought, all the world is really a stage for us to play up our own lives for others- to imagine what it must have been like in the moment. To revel in the excitement that we experience-or maybe try to over dramatize events we are telling to spice up our otherwise dreary days.
Animation is a key to telling any story in person. It gives it more life and emotion. The large and small hand gestures, the facial expressions, the movement of our bodies. Even the slight body contact towards others in the form of a touch of someone's arm or shoulder while spinning our tales. We perform like this all the time when we are with one, or with many...all without the benefit of a formal platform-
Would we have the nerve to stand before an audience of people and tell our tales? Would we be able to be as invigorated and animated as we are in our own little public areas? Would we 'shy' up and become little wall flowers; or get up on a soap box and have some real fun with it?
I used to feel like the frozen girl having quiet fun with a friend. I am still shy as an adult. I fight with that part of me inside to this day...It's comfortable for me to stay silent and watch the world in my own little way, meek and mild, smiling gently staying out of the limelight.
Of course, in the past, I would put on my game face and be 'outgoing lady' while working as a social worker or a domestic violence educator, nurse, etc. while the inside of me was in a twist. I always made the best of what I had to work with inside myself...which was growing ever so depressed. After years of living/ feeling this way, I got to the point of thinking...what was my major malfunction??... that I felt so beneath myself all the time?? I was cheating myself out of much laughter-happy go lucky-'oh well I will enjoy it anyway' experiences!!
Sometimes I think we just need to get out of our own heads. Stop overthinking things and just have fun with our daily happenings. So what- what other people think! So what- if something goes in a different direction!...stuff happens....life happens...smile anyway, laugh anyway. It will give you something interesting to tell the next time your with your friends while out and about. I can testify to how liberating it is to just enjoy being yourself openly, only happier, joking, laughing and sharing it with those around you. I learned that deep breathing and positive inner mantra reinforcement is key to just being ok with myself- it's calming.
Find your stage and show your smile off. Who knows, maybe you will eventually receive the standing ovation you deserve.
Then take a bow
you have found some inner sunlight....
~Peace out~
curtain closes on my day
...and scene :)
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