Scary movies=fear no more

As I was watching a scary movie...well what I call scary- I started to ponder why I get such satisfaction from getting scared??? I think I know. For me at least, its to desensitize my senses for when I get into real situations that freak me out.
 I have been relatively shy most of my life. Who am I kidding- ALL of my life. I am far better now at covering it up and appearing fairly happy, outgoing and free-spirited on the external. ( not much self esteem was given in my childhood home) I pretty much had to with the jobs, volunteer work, speed bumps that  I chose; and just having to be the "strong'' one in my family life.  I went through some unfortunate marriages,* I was still the one to have to hold it all together. Its a lonely, hard place to be. ( still I am blessed as others have had it much worse~) So even though I was terrified inside of new challenges, etc, I still "woman'ed up" and made a fairly good living-carving out a forward path with an outward smile and my chin up! There are many strong women out there! But we are still human and still desire to have a soft place to fall once in a while. I don't know what that feels like-yet.. that is something I dearly pray for in my life- when the time is right  :)
I want to state that I do NOT like or watch slasher movies, or ones that have a bunch of cursing or people constantly 'hosing' each other. I don't know how else to say that without being blunt.
I like the old movie psycho...Norman Bates...its a thriller, a scary movie that makes your mind go to frightening places. The other movie I seem to get unnerved about.... that I watch every year, is the original' THE FOG!' Not the remake, but the original. Its pretty simple, maybe even lame by todays standards...but it gets me every time if I watch it in the dark. Its about sins and demons that we inherit from our past...if we don't rectify them and make peace. The unknown...
Here is my 5 minute overview of the movie that scares me the most:

I of course don't always watch movies with a big bag of popcorn...although that is a fun treat. I usually like a big bowl of fresh blueberries and some of my favorite candies...turtles :)  yum! I am not a conformist! haha. To each his own tastes~

 The movie starts off with Father Malone, who discovers an old journal after a freak earth quake -like disturbance...that mysteriously falls free from a brick wall. Turns out, about one hundred years before his ancestor and a few cohorts devise a way to sink a ship full of people with leprosy. Of course there is much more to this...but if you want to get the whole eerie story....watch the movie yourself- heh!

 The name of the full-sailed clipper ship is called the Elizabeth Dane.... which appears out of the luminous fog at the stroke of 12 am and strange creepy ( you'll have to watch) wreaks havoc and revenge out of the fog...

 Now every scary movie has the brainless, no common sense at all people in it...(I usually avoid the ones with the airheaded 'blonde in high heeled shoes' types...so here is one of the worst offenders....while being warned on the phone by the woman in the lighthouse that got a clue- all is not well, to not go into the fog because something bad is in it....well can you tell by the look on his face where he went next?? hahahahahahahahahahah! Brilliant-right~

 Then there are the parts, in most scary movies, where you just have to yell.....TURN AROUND ALREADY! hahahahahahaha never in time though~and for some reason they never hear you through the television or what have you...

 And all through the heart pounding music and the scares and the edge of my seat with my eyes half closed but still peeking...my cat Anubis sleeps quietly and unamused at the whole thing. I can find a little comfort just in the fact that I can feel her presence in the room. Not that she would go ninja on any monsters that came into the room to 'get me'

Somehow watching some scary shows or movies help lower my stress level when things happen in real life that tend to scare me, unnerve me. It doesn't take it all away-but it helps me prepare a bit. Gives me an advantage to help me keep my wits about- better. Some may just like the adrenaline rush by itself...but I really believe going through the fear-over and over-helps us take our own personal fears down to a level that we can control our reactions...and reason them out with courage.           
                       Keep your peace, and for those who also have 'faith' -if you believe in Him, whom shall you fear?!   
Peace out-don't freak out ;)
                                                          

Nature vs Nurture- It's all Relevant to me~

I was thinking this week about the things I really like and the things that I don't... and the things that really rather annoy me. There isn't much that really annoys me, so I didn't take much time on dwelling on that subject. I'm not one for wasting much thought on negative things. Its a no-brainer. Id rather laugh and smile, forgive when people are involved and get on with living the best I know how. I think most of us concede to that pattern of thought...hopefully :)
By expressing some of the things I truly like ( or love), it will give you an inside look at what kind of person I am. I pondered if I have these likes or loves-if I developed them as a result of the way I was brought up, or whom my influence's were along the way.....or....was some of the reasons why I felt good about these things because they were ingrained in my 'being' when I was born on this earth? I believe we were 'known' before we joined the land of the living here on this planet. Anyways~
Some things that have meant a lot to me, that I like, that give me pleasure, a happy smile...are fairly simple. That's what my blog is about, its what I am about: the fun and simple things~
The top of my list, as it well should be everyone's...is FAMILY

Now I realize we cant pick our family members in the beginning...which leads me to think God has an interesting sense of humor for some of us- and if or when we decide to marry and expand our loved ones...(but even though I call my family a side-show from life's circus and sometimes I feel as if I'm stuck in the freak tent...(laughing at this as I say in the most happy loving way)) I cherish every last one of them in their own lovable uniqueness. Living or passed. I have a small group of girlfriends I call "my tribe" from my high school days that are like sisters to me. I can always count on them to draw strength from when I need it, when I stumble or feel low. They are family. And I have other friends, new ones that have came into my life recently, and even old friends that I have reconnected up with, that I love and consider them close...that makes them family also. There is almost nothing I wouldn't do for them if ever in need. ( for their betterment of course) even if it is to just throw a smile or laugh their way when life gets tough. "Family" !
I love animals. I spent half of my life on a farm...in a creepy, century old, haunted- but pretty cool old home. ( the other half I was a city girl) We raised many different kinds of animals for food, pets, etc. I was always the one who brought home injured or homeless animals, nursing them back to health. I just hate to see things suffer. I wanted to love them back to happiness. I guess that's my start for the nursing biz later in life.
 Horses, I love horses!!!! Before I could drive, I got around my small country town of Monroe, Washington, on horseback. I was in 4-H. I showed my horses. I was even a judge at one time. I still have many ribbons. Horseback riding with my friends gave me the freedom I so desired to get out of my home environment. ( wasn't the best, not a lot of love~unfortunately) Horses!!!!

Nature. Hiking and walking, hearing the sounds of the birds singing and the wind blowing through the trees.... water running down a creek, the sound of ocean waves ... the sound of silence outside. ( now that one is hard to come by) Just seeing all the beauty that is around us at any given time. We are so much in a rush, always too busy or too tired to just stop and take it all in...it brings you back to reality and peace. Gives you a chance to deep breath..
I love weather- here comes my geek out in me... I love the changes in weather. Of course I love the warmth and sunshine the best, but I love when the wind whips hard and things go flying, yes :) and the rain comes crashing down in buckets...and best of all, I love when the fog starts to roll in. Its a little creepy, cool. Maybe that's why I like the movie The Fog ( original version) hmmmm. Pondering that one right now ~ ha      
Here it comes

 Finding shapes in the clouds

 Hearing the leaves rustle as the birds find resting limbs

The sunshine peering from the top of a beautiful building, you can imagine the peace

 

 

I love flowers...of course...My favorites are Hydrangeas...

I do love lilacs and roses because of their beauty and fragrance...Ok, so basically I love all flowers. They are a living work of art. ( which I love also- good art)

 

I really like, love, enjoy when I go out on home rehab/repair jobs with the funny hard working people such as these magoo's!

With a strong work ethic and a good sense of humor to make the day roll a little more smoothly, because this kind of work isn't for pansies, I can't go wrong. Some of the boys are from the Pacific Northwest, and one from Hawaii. Beside, 'Lisa' doesn't do under-the-house work anymore...too many 'crawlies' under there I don't want to meet. ( not to mention the gasses, and noxious other yuck-no thank you!! haha)

                                                                   BUFFALO!

My odd passion and like is for the Buffalo. For some reason my sister and I both have /had a love for buffalo. Maybe its their rawness, their muscular, furry peaceful- boldness... ( and not to gross anyone out but buffalo meat is great and very lean. Much better for your body than beef) I intend a trip in the future to the Utah-Wyoming-South Dakota area for frame-able pictures of the last few organic herd's in the US. You will know when that happens, because I'm sure I will have a few postings with some great pictures and adventures.
Well there is so much more to me than that. But it gets you a little closer to how my brain works and what entertains me, plus what I find dear to me. Nature or nurture, it is all relevant to me because it is what it is...just who I am...simple and fun, smiling and laughing- hugging who ever I can to bring some sunshine and care too. I'm not opposed to getting hugged myself...in fact I encourage it if you want to make me smile and feel the love! :)
                                                     Thanks for hanging with me today~ your awesome!
                                                                 ~ Peace out~

Expanding the Brain

Nothing can take the place of simply picking up a physical book and opening it up to read for a while.

 Electronic books....well are just a no-no for me. I get that its quick, easy to produce, yadda yadda~
But there has to be some time in our lives where we can just disconnect from the world- that also includes anything electronic...cell phones, computers, televisions, video games, Ipods, Ipads..etc. Am I missing anything??
Now just going out for a quiet walk or just meditating is refreshing and one should do this as often as your crazy busy life  permits.... just to recharge your batteries and bring you down to earth for some well needed peace.
To me there is nothing better than to take some of that time to increase your brain cells, to increase your knowledge or maybe to have a little mind adventure for pleasure. Picking up a book and feeling the cover ( I prefer hard covers) and thumbing through the pages, the smell of the paper and ink fuels the enchantment of what you are about to devour. There is so much to choose from. So many topics.....whatever you want to learn, know, journey with. Having some friends you can share your experiences with after reading the same book can be fun. Its great to get different perspectives on the same subject. Makes for some good  positive debating conversations. If your reading for knowledge-it  works the same way as they may have an interesting view.. or pick up something you had not thought of.
I love reading biographies of certain people I find fascinating-I love the psychology of people...(why they think and do the things they do. I love a good head scratcher.) I like true stories, I like scary literature... and most of all I love scripture reading in the morning as it gets my thoughts off on a positive uplifting motion forward. I like to read spiritual books. But I  do admit I am very choosy when it comes to that, because lets face it...everyone has an opinion and many love to write about it~

Not only do I love to read and fill my mind with new things to ponder, I love to write and I have just begun to journal. Last year my dear longtime friend Maria from Florida, fashioned a cute little personal journal book for me. It had pages with pictures of family and friends and little quotes. She wrote the start of different questions so I could personalize my thoughts......

I also started to write my personal faith journey down. My thoughts and words will become a precious gift to  future generations ( in my family); just as you or whomever does this will also come to fruition. I encourage you to do this for your future family. They will surely come to know you in a most lovely deep way. People have shared their stories orally and though pen and paper for centuries.

Its a great way to share your legacy.

Give it some thought~

Enjoy your week and find your inner bookworm :)

Happy thoughts

~Peace out~

 

Blonde with brains even!!!

                                             
Just a short post. I am blonde- I was born this way. :)  I don't know how many people in my lifetime that have come up to me and asked "Is this your real hair color?" ....ugh.
I get that there are a lot of dyed blondes as well as other hair colors....whatever floats ones boat. Its all good with me~ But I am a true blonde.
Explaining my hair color is mundane, humdrum and a really old topic all the way around!!!
But still I have to talk about it because I'm asked often.
So here is my two cents worth for all of us who know what I'm talking about:
When you see me....it doesn't matter what color my hair is or was, etc. Instead, say "hi", get to know me, who I am, lets exchange some smiles......some good moments. I am not my hair color-nor does my IQ have anything to do with it. ( something started by blonde haters- yet many dye their hair blonde...about as ridiculous as people bad-mouthing dark skinned people, then going out and getting tans to darken their own skins...oie!) 
People can be real head scratchers to me on occasion.........
To wrap this up, if you still want to know what a persons real hair color is, chances are...if you just look at the color of their arm hair- its a pretty good indicator....think about that then talk about something else...PLEASE! lol

We are all different, were all human, we are all interesting in our own ways, I say "Thank God!"
Lets just re-evaluate what's really important with being "us" and stop being so superficial. I say this with all due love and respect towards everyone.
Peace out~

Ok, one more thing- I say this smiling but firm-Enough with the blonde jokes already!!!! Who are you really kidding??  It just makes you sound ridiculous and 'airheaded' ~ Just saying ;)

Rhetorical Ponderings at the Beach

Have you ever had some open space in your thinking during the day? When odd thoughts come flooding in and you start pondering them? Random...sometimes rhetorical in nature? I was spending some time with a few family members about a week ago. We went on a nice walk in the sunshine down to Agate beach. Not the tourist area, mind you, but a place where some locals go that know about it. Its where a group of surfers go to catch the waves away from the mainstreamers.
We walked down a hidden pathway down to the beachside and trailed along the waters line in the sun. I was feeling pretty good breathing in the sweet cool salty air as it had been a while since my last beach excursion. The sun was bouncing off the water, glistening, sparkling as it swept in and out with the tide flows.
Then I sat down on a large piece of driftwood that had a flat spot on top like a seat- that was washed up on the sand just for me. Yep, just for me...that's how I look at things. It keeps my life awesome and happy :)
Auri started to throw rocks in the water...one by one she would find a little larger one. I think she was aiming to create a bigger splash. But there is something more to this for a person, I feel ~

 Her father was watching her and began to compliment her "throwing arm". You see he is a big baseball fan and has an amazing talent with playing the sport himself. This in turn encouraged Auri to really get into her form.
 One by one, the adults got into picking up large and small stones to hurl them as far as they could in the water. As I was watching, I started to ponder why it was so fun...possibly stress liberating to throw rocks in the water. Most of us have done it. And when you are done, you always feel relaxed, happier and even more peaceful.
I believe first, being around water is soothing. Its where many people migrate when they need a break from life. Throwing rocks is kind of therapeutic. It exhausts excess energy that can sometimes come out of our bodies as stress. That's a negative-stress. Water-fresh air-motion of thrusting objects in a fun context can turn your negative into a positive feeling. Hearing the splash and watching the water dance; challenging yourself and using your creativeness-what can be more simply entertaining??
Yes, you are right....finding the right rock for skipping!! That is an art within itself~
All of this that I have spoken of, seems pretty insignificant, right?
So I ask you, take some time, go out and find a lake a river, the sea or even a 'crick' ( creek) and spend some time throwing or skipping some rocks.....then get back to me so I can say "I told you so!!!" ;)   It really brings you back to earth and makes you smile!!!!! There is nothing better than finding the simple and fun things in life and applying them to yours!

As for me, until I get back out and about:

Being busy the last couple months, plus being sick (hasn't slowed me down much) has been like when your mind is going a million miles an hour with all that needs to be done- the central "task-master" center of your inner universe...but your body is sluggish and begging for you to set up camp under the sheets of your bed and turn the world off for a few days. Its a real intense conversation I have with myself "inside my brain"! In the end, my body takes over and I concede to the bedroom and the 6 fluffy white pillows and my soft furry owl blanket and turn myself off.
I have been fighting a respiratory illness that checked into my body and loves it so much, it just wants to set up house! There is a lot of nastiness going around out there and I was one of  the unlucky. Life..it goes on and I'm a health fighter :)  -Go me! hehe
~Peace out and take your vitamin C and zinc!!