I also believe there is a small inherited component to ADHD, etc. I myself, have a very borderline obsessive thought process of 'specific' cleaning and organizing. I tend to get sidetracked easily while doing something...I tend to start other projects..... you know....multi-tasking! I see myself a little bit like when I look in my old mission style mirror that is grainy from years of reflection and cleaning that I purchased out of an old craftsman style house that was going to be demolished. You can see a reflection of who I am, but it is a little distorted..... not in a bad way... but a very interesting and creative way of looking at who I am.
I really love that mirror!
A short view of my morning can be that I start to wash dishes ( by hand) and see my counters need to be wiped off - so before the dishes are done I start wiping the counters-then notice out on my deck when I glanced out the siding window door that I needed to water my plants-I stop wiping my counters and go start filling up my water can-while that's going I finish my counters-go out to water my plants and see I need to sweep and tie up some tall growth on my tomato plants-I go cut some string that I have a large ball of in my utility closet-and notice I need to straighten up my coffee/butler table ( I need things to be straight and organized, in place or it just bugs the crap out of me inside my brain, lol.... yep, that's me!) With the string draped over my shoulder, I make my table presentable :) - then I cut through the kitchen and remember I was in the middle of my dishes, so I finish the last of them in the sink-walk outside past my dining table and notice some paperwork I need to finish....am I making you tired yet?? haha....me too. At the time it was nothing, all normal for me. Anyhow, I decided to finish my outside "already started jobs" and head inside to sit down to start working at the paper pile. Now you think I would slow down and get the job done, right? I had to fight myself to actually finish the paperwork. My eye has a mind of its own. It kept roving around my home looking for things I needed to do...and I found a few things...it took a great deal of inner convincing to keep myself focused and sitting! It's no wonder why I fall into a mini coma at night. The only problem is if I 'still' have energy in my brain, its hard to shut it off at bedtime. This is some of why, my good blog readers, I walk /jog as much as I do. I find its the best way for me to decompress, distress, get some good endorphins flowing and burn that energy!
Maybe someday I will marry- and will have other enjoyable ways of releasing my excess energy- like a feather on the warm beach dancing in the wind, white and beautiful....
I will leave it at that...to the imagination.
Actually, I see my son, myself and anyone else who deals with different ways of working through their 'uniqueness' in a positive way- pilots of their lives. Flying high above the issues during the day and soaring forward in their lives, living adventurous and free from negative restrictions.
Like I've always said, it's all in how you perceive your path; it's all in how you pilot your plane. Don't feel afraid to crash or have an emergency landing ever so often....we all have those moments. EVERYONE DOES!
We just need to find other ways to get creative and learn how to do an aerial roll, or a loop, maneuvering in an artistic forward flow. That's the way I see it! It's more exciting and productive that way. What fun!!
I am the Aviatrix of my life!!
Come fly with me - and kiss the sky
~Peace out~
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